This was posted last night to Blurty and MySpace, my apologies for not getting it on here last night.
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I just spent 30 minutes doing this on MySpace only to have it hiccup and I've lost it. So now I'm a bit pissed off, but, I'll go ahead and re-type this anyway.
So - for starters, I'm going to ask forgiveness ahead of time for the insanity of the next few postings. They will be a bit discombobulated as my mind tries to work through things. Try to follow along. I think having a drink in your system might make following it a bit better.
I'm going to start the world of mental puking with the good stuff. Not the juicy shit that will be in the next few posts, but, the really amazing things going on in my life. I've focused a bit too much on the negative lately and I've nearly gotten to the breaking point more than once, but when I step back and look, there really are a lot of good things going on and I need to say so.
First of all, I love our new church. I remember at my wedding my best friend asked the name of the lady who sang during the service (her name is Janet). She told me Janet really had the Spirit of the Lord upon her and the family was blessed and protected in many ways because of their relationship with her and the family. My friend told me to stay near her because of that. I have not forgotten those words so when I was looking seriously for a new church that came back to me and I went with Elena and we've not left.
I feel very safe there. Even if I don't quite agree with 100 percent of everything I don't feel that saying I'm not sure about it would be recieved with hatred as it has been in the past. I don't sense that my child would be in danger of being mistreated inorder to get to me here and that is my number one concern. I really truly feel safe there and many people look at me wierd when I say that, but you know, when you can forsee your child having people mistreat them to get a parent to leave a church you make that a top concern.
Speaking of Elena, we've taken our first few steps just last week and she is walking quite a bit more now. We'll get her to do about 10-15 steps tops at a time, but she's cute walking but still thinks crawling is the fastest and less painful way to reach her destination. I'm sure she'll be running here in the next few weeks after the cats, but, I'm hoping to get a little bit of video of her walking up on the blogspot blog here in the next week or so. Don't miss!!!
In addition, at the end of church service, Janet sings as people mix and mingle and leave. Elena has this great activity of making a B-line for the front of the church after service and lets Janet pick her up and Janet hands her the microphone. Last Sunday Elena could be heard humming the song under Janet's voice.
I was talking to one of the ladys after that and she said that Elena is destined to be a musician and/or an evangelist. I typically would have brushed that comment off, but this church is very much in the Spirit and into prophetic revelation and something about that comment just struck a bit too deep to ignore and brush off. It was as if many of the things I had been thinking made a bit more sense. Those are words I intend to keep with me for a while and see what happens. There is just something about the spirit behind what she said that still strikes me even talking about it.
I have signed up for a class given by the church on the book of Acts. It will start at the end of August. The church is working on getting full accreditation to be a Bible college so they can confer degrees and titles upon people but I'm really just hoping for some in-depth discussion. I feel like my brain has done not a lot since graduation and things within the year after and I'm excited at the idea of giving it a workout again. I went to the ND bookstore Sunday and just got somewhat depressed that I can't find decent graduate classes to take. I know I can do Univ. of St. Louis online or drive to and from Western Michigan if I can get in and really study what I want, but I'm still torn between the job and the family.
Speaking of the job - I have been told we will still have jobs through next year. That eases me a bit, but, every year at this time it gets pretty tense especially since we don't have grant guidance on what items we need to have met next year and were told today we won't get it until Oct. 31 at the earliest bc the feds are restructuring how they are managing and disbursing the monies to the locals. Only time will tell.
So I'm hoping if I get into this class I will be able to not feel so weak-minded. I have no one around me to have deep philosophical discussions with and I just feel like my mind has wasted a bit since losing those around me with which I had deep discussions. I know I should call Sheryl more often but she has a lot on her plate as do I and I only call her anymore when I'm really in a situation where I desperately need good solid advice and guidance on how to get through something the way Christ wants.
Only time will tell. I hope to have some good news on that front here soon.
The new car is still awesome! I love my Acadia. It actually makes 800 miles a week exciting. I am also going to definately sign up to continue the XM radio service. It completely kicks ass, except in the sports category, and worth every one of the 13 bucks a month.
With all the good comes the pick pick picking of evil and today I got picked on again and I could tell I was in the Spirit from the way my immediate reaction was to one of the backstabs. It's a great thing, the peace of Jesus. I just wish I could get there more often.
I shall produce volume II later.
La. Sra.
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