I've been tagged by Domi's World to say six wierd things about myself.
So - Here we go!!!
1 - I typically spell becuase wrong. See, I just screwed it up there. Why? Becuase my fingers don't typically work correctly. I know my boss is probably couting how many times I do it in my emails and I'm sure before I leave that job when the grant money is out he'll have a good count and come up with some kind of silly you owe me one penny for eact time you misspell it so he can buy himself a nice car.
Yes, I misspell it that much, along with a lot of other words.
Another wierd thing about my typing is that I use my left hand on the space bar. We were always taught to use the right hand whenever you wanted to space on the keyboard during keyboarding class but you know what, it just never worked out that way. So - here's to all of my typing teachers ..1.. I'm doing it MY way and you know what - it works, so leave it alone.
2- In the light of the astro-nut scandal that includes diapers, I'll let many of you who were never around me as a kid in on a little secret - I wanted to pilot the space shuttle as a kid.
That's right. I wanted to not only go into space, but I wanted to pilot the damn machinery. I still want to be a pilot and had I had good vision and decent math skills I would have done whatever it took to fly in the Navy or Air Force in a fighter jet. My walls were covered in posters of jets as a kid, along with the appropriate shuttle items. My parents took us to the Grissom AFB open house every year and we got to see the demonstrations and I still secretly want to go up in one.
But, I don't have hundreds of thousands of dollars or really good KGB connections in Russia who can put me in a MiG for a short flight so I guess I'll still have to just dream about being a pilot of a fast plane.
3 - I never carried a purse on a daily basis until I was a senior in college. What did I carry you ask? A men's trifold leather wallet (I still have it and was using it in my purse as my billfold until my husband got me a nice Coach card carrier for Christmas). I could keep everything I needed- cash, the one emergency credit card, my insurance card and a couple of spare keys in my wallet in my back pocket. Why carry a purse?
The only reason I started carrying a purse was becuase (see I did it again!) I had purchased a cell phone for my job as a newspaper reporter and didn't want to always stick it in my pocket for fear of losing it. So I bought a small purse that fit well in my bookbag (see, I still really didn't CARRY it even then) and went on with life.
I've since become a purse whore, but, I still only purchase medium size bags (the only big bag you'll probably see me carry is the diaper bag and even then most of the time my purse has to fit into that bag! I'm still anal, aren't I?) and only when there is a good sale. I hate paying full price for purses or shoes. I wish my husband would take a lesson on that.
4 - I used to do gymnastics as a kid. I was never really good at any apparatus but I was very good and diving rolls for some reason. I was also fairly flexible and was either first or second in the contest to do back arches starting from the floor. But, I was too scared of heights and was horribly coordinated for the balance beam and couldn't do a simple handstand so really, much of that was out, so I danced instead. I took jazz dancing lessons. I quit shortly before my fifth year becuase the studio upped their prices and my parents couldn't afford it anymore. I wasn't that great and I couldn't even do splits, but, it was fun, I think, while it lasted.
5 - I can't wear fingernail polish. As soon as I get polish on my fingers my hands start drying out and cracking something awful. I've never figured out why and we've tried many different types of polish, but it always ends up that way. And it seems like no amount of lotion will fix the drying process so, I avoid it like nasty germs but, lavish the loving on my toes. For some reason, my feet don't react the same way, which is good for me becuase for some reason I don't really like the look of 90 percent of fingernail polish on women in person (in mags it looks great, but in person there's just something about it that bugs me) but I think it's awesome on toes. It's like her little secret for the world to see and it's almost impowering.
But, maybe that's because I was never able to wear polish growing up, not even for prom due to my mom's bias against polish, and there's just something amazingly womanly about getting a sweetass pedi and topcoat. Grrrr baby.
6 - I hate to have my facial hair plucked. I do on occassion need to get my brows done and I cannot stand the insanity of plucking. Just do one strip of wax, hurt for 2 seconds and be done. Why prolong the pain?
So - there you go. Six wierd things about me that most of you probably didn't know.
I hope it was enjoyable, or it allowed you to be unbored for more than 30 seconds.
Chao!!
La. Sra.
Monday, February 26, 2007
You know what?
*****I WANT TO BE PERFECTLY CLEAR ABOUT THIS POST, NOTHING IS RELATED TO MY JOB IN TERMS OF THE MEANINGS IN HERE, IT'S ALL PERSONAL******
Something in me switched on today.
I don't know why or how, but it did. And you know what, things have to change in my life.
I know exactly what I need to do and I don't know why but there seems to be some urgency about it, as if things are ramping up for a decent attack soon. Where or from who, I don't know.
But, the last time something switched on like this, there was a an attack to be had and I knew exactly what my place in it was and how to deal with it because I was prepared.
There are some things in the very basicness of my life that has to fundamentally move into places I've not been in a while. The last time things like this had to shift I lost the one I loved, my home, and contact with just about all the people I cared about. I was left with just a couple of close friends who could direct me in the things I needed to focus on and all the other distractions were violently removed from my life.
I'm thinking I won't need something like that again because I know the switch on what needs to happen has flipped, but you know what, I can handle it if I get myself back to the place I was during that time. Hell, I can take on anything including the beasts of Hell itself - it wouldn't be the first time I've looked them in the eye and laughed.
So you know what - fuck just about everything. I know what needs to be done and how to do it and nothing else but that matters and if I lose just about everything and everyone again, so be it. This has to take precidence.
A bit cryptic, I know, but I know what I'm doing.
La. Sra.
Something in me switched on today.
I don't know why or how, but it did. And you know what, things have to change in my life.
I know exactly what I need to do and I don't know why but there seems to be some urgency about it, as if things are ramping up for a decent attack soon. Where or from who, I don't know.
But, the last time something switched on like this, there was a an attack to be had and I knew exactly what my place in it was and how to deal with it because I was prepared.
There are some things in the very basicness of my life that has to fundamentally move into places I've not been in a while. The last time things like this had to shift I lost the one I loved, my home, and contact with just about all the people I cared about. I was left with just a couple of close friends who could direct me in the things I needed to focus on and all the other distractions were violently removed from my life.
I'm thinking I won't need something like that again because I know the switch on what needs to happen has flipped, but you know what, I can handle it if I get myself back to the place I was during that time. Hell, I can take on anything including the beasts of Hell itself - it wouldn't be the first time I've looked them in the eye and laughed.
So you know what - fuck just about everything. I know what needs to be done and how to do it and nothing else but that matters and if I lose just about everything and everyone again, so be it. This has to take precidence.
A bit cryptic, I know, but I know what I'm doing.
La. Sra.
Driver's Education
Thanks to my dad for helping this along.
He can deal with the ramifications in a few years.
I'll try to get a few more pics up here soon.
Hope everyone is well!
He can deal with the ramifications in a few years.
I'll try to get a few more pics up here soon.
Hope everyone is well!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
I come from the land of snow, but not ice
I'm not nearly snowed in as those in NY, but, the drifts in the driveway are annoyning.
I had trouble getting into the driveway today after picking up the lass from Martas. I had to get a couple of running starts but I finally made it. I was NOT parking in the street tonight. I just hope the hubby can make it into the driveway tonight when he gets home.
He does have an advantage as he's got and all wheel drive vehicle, even if it is only a car.
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Interesting few weeks
Between runs to and from Indy and having my meetings this week moved to next due to the wx I think I'm finally getting back into the swing of life.
The one bad part of the job is that sometimes you get so swamped doing different things for the jurisdictions you work with that you never get much of anything done for anyone. I think things have calmed down where I can get some things hammered out that I've been waiting to do. The next day or so in the home office should help get that finished and then the meetings from this week are now next week so I'll be working out of the area, but maybe next week toward the end of the week I can hit up the seven counties I haven't seen in close to a month.
Its completely frustrating, but, that's the nature of the job.
I've also made some other interesting observations from the world around me the past few weeks:
1. Some people can't see past themselves for the greater good of people. Its my right to do this - its my right to make your choice for you when you can't afford something that could save your life. Are people really that small?
2. Those not in a right relationship with Jesus can do great, and they can have heartbreaking lives. Those in the latter are those I can do nothing for person to person and that's frustrating. They wither away in their misery with no joy or a twisted happiness that lasts for brief moments. It breaks your heart to see them in that state but nothing you say or do can really make a difference until they're wiling to comes to grips with Jesus, no matter how much they despise religion and all things pertaining (or even having a mild discussion) on their philosophies.
3. I actually went to church Sunday. It was interesting. I didn't disagree with much the preacher said, although the one thing that kind of tipped my warning flags was he related sickness with an attack of evil. I'm not so much into that completely. Yes, evil can have dominion in the physical, I've seen it happen before, but on the whole, I really think it goes to God allowing it to happen for whatever reason, good or bad. It could be a test of faith, it could be a spiritual ass kicking. That's between the person and God, but I don't see most illnesses/physical ailments an attack.
4. You really see the true character of people when they are at their worst. Most of the time they can come through with shining colors and although it may be bad, you still respect them in the end. Other times, their pain takes over and breaks your heart in how ugly humanity can really be and reveals more of the dysfunction a life can have without a right relationship with Jesus. Again, there's nothing you can say to those people until they're ready to see themselves in the ugliness of humanity as Jesus sees them and accept the changes that need to happen to get through the pain.
5. I think I may actually go back to church on Sunday. It all really hinges on when the baby wakes up. The weekend is the time I really hate waking her up before we have to b/c we have to wake her up early most weekday mornings. So far, I think this is a church where the truths I know will be given a fair listening and a civil reaction from those who may not agree, unlike what I would expect at most churches. We'll see how it goes. It may not be where I end up in the end, but it seems like a good jumping off point to get back in to church.
6. My daughter's stomach just isn't big. She's been sick and only gained 2 oz in 2 weeks. She's still on the growth chart but in the low teens in terms of weight for her age. The doc wants her up to 30 oz of breastmilk a day and that's going to deplete the stash much sooner than I had hoped. Because it won't make it till May we're going to have to suppliment with formula. After the reaction to the yogurt I think we're going to start with soy based formula. If we suppliment one bottle (or do two half formula half breastmilk bottles ) a day I think we stretch the amount of breastmilk I have frozen as I'm only pumping 2 to 6 oz a day and she's going through almost 12 oz during that time - you can see the difference. But, we're having trouble getting her to eat 25 oz a day plus the other stuff without being on the verge of spitting up and her stomach all distended so it'll be intersting to see how we can space the feedings out to allow her to eat but not gorge. This is completely frustrating. I just wish the nursing had gone better. Maybe it'll be better with the next baby.
7. I really have to get my head out of my ass. I have so many things I get distraught about and I don't know some of the things I should be doing vs. what I want to do and the things I need to do always takes a backseat. I can be a complete lazyass. After working all day and trying to pump the baby full of food I want to do NOTHING (except maybe watch a good TV show or say howdy on the blogs). Like in the past few weeks in my professional life I feel like there are so many things going on that I can't get any one thing tackled. In addition I still really want to go get my masters degree but part of me can't wait until the day I can stay home but then I worry that I will go crazy with no adult interaction. This is where the whole right relationship with Jesus comes in. I'm definately not where I used to be and it's irritating at the core of who I am.
7b. I still haven't recovered from the grief of losing Rich. I used to think that when I started dating my now husband I stepped away from really focusing on Jesus and my relationship with him. However, I realize that it really was when Rich got very sick and I didn't talk to him for the few weeks before he died. It makes a difference in terms of the passion you have for something when you have someone to share the excitement of what you learn. I have a couple other people that are those kindred spirits but one is now in Texas and I rarely hear from her and the other is having some personal issues of her own and I don't call her nearly as much as I should. I have to get past the grief and the heartache or I'm going to stay stagnant and I don't want that.
8. I love the show 'Heroes'. It's completely addicting. It makes me enjoy waking up to a Monday.
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It's after 10:30 and I need to grab some sleep. I can't manage to get enough sleep at nights anymore. No matter how early I go to bed I cannot get up in the morning and feel rested. I was hoping to get to bed right after I put the baby down a couple of hours ago, but, obviously that didn't happen.
Everybody stay safe!!!!!!
La. Sra.
I had trouble getting into the driveway today after picking up the lass from Martas. I had to get a couple of running starts but I finally made it. I was NOT parking in the street tonight. I just hope the hubby can make it into the driveway tonight when he gets home.
He does have an advantage as he's got and all wheel drive vehicle, even if it is only a car.
__________________
Interesting few weeks
Between runs to and from Indy and having my meetings this week moved to next due to the wx I think I'm finally getting back into the swing of life.
The one bad part of the job is that sometimes you get so swamped doing different things for the jurisdictions you work with that you never get much of anything done for anyone. I think things have calmed down where I can get some things hammered out that I've been waiting to do. The next day or so in the home office should help get that finished and then the meetings from this week are now next week so I'll be working out of the area, but maybe next week toward the end of the week I can hit up the seven counties I haven't seen in close to a month.
Its completely frustrating, but, that's the nature of the job.
I've also made some other interesting observations from the world around me the past few weeks:
1. Some people can't see past themselves for the greater good of people. Its my right to do this - its my right to make your choice for you when you can't afford something that could save your life. Are people really that small?
2. Those not in a right relationship with Jesus can do great, and they can have heartbreaking lives. Those in the latter are those I can do nothing for person to person and that's frustrating. They wither away in their misery with no joy or a twisted happiness that lasts for brief moments. It breaks your heart to see them in that state but nothing you say or do can really make a difference until they're wiling to comes to grips with Jesus, no matter how much they despise religion and all things pertaining (or even having a mild discussion) on their philosophies.
3. I actually went to church Sunday. It was interesting. I didn't disagree with much the preacher said, although the one thing that kind of tipped my warning flags was he related sickness with an attack of evil. I'm not so much into that completely. Yes, evil can have dominion in the physical, I've seen it happen before, but on the whole, I really think it goes to God allowing it to happen for whatever reason, good or bad. It could be a test of faith, it could be a spiritual ass kicking. That's between the person and God, but I don't see most illnesses/physical ailments an attack.
4. You really see the true character of people when they are at their worst. Most of the time they can come through with shining colors and although it may be bad, you still respect them in the end. Other times, their pain takes over and breaks your heart in how ugly humanity can really be and reveals more of the dysfunction a life can have without a right relationship with Jesus. Again, there's nothing you can say to those people until they're ready to see themselves in the ugliness of humanity as Jesus sees them and accept the changes that need to happen to get through the pain.
5. I think I may actually go back to church on Sunday. It all really hinges on when the baby wakes up. The weekend is the time I really hate waking her up before we have to b/c we have to wake her up early most weekday mornings. So far, I think this is a church where the truths I know will be given a fair listening and a civil reaction from those who may not agree, unlike what I would expect at most churches. We'll see how it goes. It may not be where I end up in the end, but it seems like a good jumping off point to get back in to church.
6. My daughter's stomach just isn't big. She's been sick and only gained 2 oz in 2 weeks. She's still on the growth chart but in the low teens in terms of weight for her age. The doc wants her up to 30 oz of breastmilk a day and that's going to deplete the stash much sooner than I had hoped. Because it won't make it till May we're going to have to suppliment with formula. After the reaction to the yogurt I think we're going to start with soy based formula. If we suppliment one bottle (or do two half formula half breastmilk bottles ) a day I think we stretch the amount of breastmilk I have frozen as I'm only pumping 2 to 6 oz a day and she's going through almost 12 oz during that time - you can see the difference. But, we're having trouble getting her to eat 25 oz a day plus the other stuff without being on the verge of spitting up and her stomach all distended so it'll be intersting to see how we can space the feedings out to allow her to eat but not gorge. This is completely frustrating. I just wish the nursing had gone better. Maybe it'll be better with the next baby.
7. I really have to get my head out of my ass. I have so many things I get distraught about and I don't know some of the things I should be doing vs. what I want to do and the things I need to do always takes a backseat. I can be a complete lazyass. After working all day and trying to pump the baby full of food I want to do NOTHING (except maybe watch a good TV show or say howdy on the blogs). Like in the past few weeks in my professional life I feel like there are so many things going on that I can't get any one thing tackled. In addition I still really want to go get my masters degree but part of me can't wait until the day I can stay home but then I worry that I will go crazy with no adult interaction. This is where the whole right relationship with Jesus comes in. I'm definately not where I used to be and it's irritating at the core of who I am.
7b. I still haven't recovered from the grief of losing Rich. I used to think that when I started dating my now husband I stepped away from really focusing on Jesus and my relationship with him. However, I realize that it really was when Rich got very sick and I didn't talk to him for the few weeks before he died. It makes a difference in terms of the passion you have for something when you have someone to share the excitement of what you learn. I have a couple other people that are those kindred spirits but one is now in Texas and I rarely hear from her and the other is having some personal issues of her own and I don't call her nearly as much as I should. I have to get past the grief and the heartache or I'm going to stay stagnant and I don't want that.
8. I love the show 'Heroes'. It's completely addicting. It makes me enjoy waking up to a Monday.
______________________
It's after 10:30 and I need to grab some sleep. I can't manage to get enough sleep at nights anymore. No matter how early I go to bed I cannot get up in the morning and feel rested. I was hoping to get to bed right after I put the baby down a couple of hours ago, but, obviously that didn't happen.
Everybody stay safe!!!!!!
La. Sra.
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